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7 Ways to Anger God

The Bible tells us that God is loving and slow to anger. Exodus 34:5-6 Then the Lord descended in the form of a pillar of cloud and stood there with him, and passed in front of him and announced the meaning of his name. “I am Jehovah, the merciful and gracious God,” he said, “slow to anger and rich in steadfast love and truth. God demonstrates incredible patience with us, but He is also a God of justice.
Psalm 37:28 For the Lord loves justice and fairness; he will never abandon his people. They will be kept safe forever; but all who love wickedness shall perish.
Isaiah 61:8 For I, the Lord, love justice; I hate robbery and wrong. I will faithfully reward my people for their suffering and make an everlasting covenant with them.
God is just, but despite being slow to anger, we can make Him angry. As you read through the Old Testament you see His people worshiping other gods and turning away from Him. You see God restraining His anger until the time He has had enough.
2 Chronicles 36:16 But the people mocked these messengers of God and despised their words, scoffing at the prophets until the anger of the Lord could no longer be restrained, and there was no longer any remedy.
In today’s message we see Jesus blasting the religious leaders. Our behavior can make God angry.
Matthew 23:14-36 TLB 13-14 “Woe to you, Pharisees, and you other religious leaders. Hypocrites! For you won’t let others enter the Kingdom of Heaven and won’t go in yourselves. And you pretend to be holy, with all your long, public prayers in the streets, while you are evicting widows from their homes. Hypocrites! 15 Yes, woe upon you hypocrites. For you go to all lengths to make one convert, and then turn him into twice the son of hell you are yourselves. 16 Blind guides! Woe upon you! For your rule is that to swear ‘By God’s Temple’ means nothing—you can break that oath, but to swear ‘By the gold in the Temple’ is binding! 17 Blind fools! Which is greater, the gold, or the Temple that sanctifies the gold? 18 And you say that to take an oath ‘By the altar’ can be broken, but to swear ‘By the gifts on the altar’ is binding! 19 Blind! For which is greater, the gift on the altar, or the altar itself that sanctifies the gift? 20 When you swear ‘By the altar,’ you are swearing by it and everything on it, 21 and when you swear ‘By the Temple,’ you are swearing by it and by God who lives in it. 22 And when you swear ‘By heavens,’ you are swearing by the Throne of God and by God himself.
23 “Yes, woe upon you, Pharisees, and you other religious leaders—hypocrites! For you tithe down to the last mint leaf in your garden, but ignore the important things—justice and mercy and faith. Yes, you should tithe, but you shouldn’t leave the more important things undone. 24 Blind guides! You strain out a gnat and swallow a camel.
25 “Woe to you, Pharisees, and you religious leaders—hypocrites! You are so careful to polish the outside of the cup, but the inside is foul with extortion and greed. 26 Blind Pharisees! First cleanse the inside of the cup, and then the whole cup will be clean.
27 “Woe to you, Pharisees, and you religious leaders! You are like beautiful mausoleums—full of dead men’s bones, and of foulness and corruption. 28 You try to look like saintly men, but underneath those pious robes of yours are hearts besmirched with every sort of hypocrisy and sin.
29-30 “Yes, woe to you, Pharisees, and you religious leaders—hypocrites! For you build monuments to the prophets killed by your fathers and lay flowers on the graves of the godly men they destroyed, and say, ‘We certainly would never have acted as our fathers did.’
31 “In saying that, you are accusing yourselves of being the sons of wicked men. 32 And you are following in their steps, filling up the full measure of their evil. 33 Snakes! Sons of vipers! How shall you escape the judgment of hell?
34 “I will send you prophets, and wise men, and inspired writers, and you will kill some by crucifixion, and rip open the backs of others with whips in your synagogues, and hound them from city to city, 35 so that you will become guilty of all the blood of murdered godly men from righteous Abel to Zechariah (son of Barachiah), slain by you in the Temple between the altar and the sanctuary. 36 Yes, all the accumulated judgment of the centuries shall break upon the heads of this very generation.
Today we will look at 7 ways our behavior can make God angry, as described by Jesus in today’s text. In today’s text Jesus pronounces “woes” on the religious elite of the day. The word woe is an exclamation of grief, denunciation, or distress. This was not the first time Jesus had some harsh words for the religious leaders. The scribes and Pharisees were supposed to know God and help others know Him and follow His ways. Instead, they added to God’s Law, making it a heavy burden on the people. And they did not follow God with a pure heart. Their religion was not true worship of God; rather, it was rooted in a prideful heart. The scribes and Pharisees emphasized the letter, completely missing its spirit.
Many of the practices that Jesus denounced are still found in our churches and people today. We need to be aware and repent if we are doing these things.

Here is one way to anger God:
1. Not letting others enter the Kingdom of Heaven and not entering it yourself. Mt 23:13-14 13-14 “Woe to you, Pharisees, and you other religious leaders. Hypocrites! For you won’t let others enter the Kingdom of Heaven and won’t go in yourselves. And you pretend to be holy, with all your long, public prayers in the streets, while you are evicting widows from their homes. Hypocrites!
Being a religious leader in Jerusalem was very different from being a pastor in a secular society today. The nation’s history, culture, and daily life centered around its relationship with God. The religious leaders were the most well-known, powerful, and respected of all leaders. Jesus gave His stinging accusations because their hunger for more power and status had made them lose sight of God, and their blindness was spreading to the whole nation.
Jesus cares for people. He desires for them to know Him and to enter His kingdom. After rebuking the scribes and Pharisees, Jesus lamented over rebellious Jerusalem. His heart is for people to find life in Him. He has harsh words for those who prevent people from finding salvation. The teachers of the Law and Pharisees were not truly seeking after God, though they acted as if they were. Their religion was empty, and it was preventing others from following the Messiah.
Jesus’ severe words were directed against religious leaders and false teachers who had rejected a part of the revealed Word of God and replaced it with their own ideas and interpretations. This also applies today. Jesus was not a weak preacher who tolerated sin. In our culture, we see many churches who have reinterpreted God’s Word and replace it with their own ideas. My friends, God does not celebrate sin. Make sure the church you are attending lines up with God’s Word. And, if you are a leader or a teacher, be sure that you are presenting God’s Word correctly. The Bible tells us that those who teach and preach will be held to a stricter standard. Be sure you are presenting His words correctly.
Another way to anger God is…


2. Converting people away from God to be like yourselves. Mt 23:15 15 Yes, woe upon you hypocrites. For you go to all lengths to make one convert, and then turn him into twice the son of hell you are yourselves. Converting people away from God to be like yourselves
In the second woe, Jesus condemns the scribes and Pharisees for making strenuous efforts to win converts and then leading those converts to be “twice as much” children of hell as the scribes and Pharisees were. In other words, they were more intent on spreading their religion than on maintaining the truth.
The Pharisees’ converts were attracted to pharisaism, not to God. By getting caught up in all the details of their additional laws and regulations, they missed God to whom the laws pointed. A religion of works puts pressure on people to surpass others in what they know and do. A hypocritical teacher is likely to have students who are even more hypocritical. We must make sure we are not creating Pharisees by emphasizing outward obedience at the expense of inner renewal.
God is angered when we…


3. Blindly lead God’s people to follow man-made traditions instead of God’s Word.
Mt23:16-22 16 Blind guides! Woe upon you! For your rule is that to swear ‘By God’s Temple’ means nothing—you can break that oath, but to swear ‘By the gold in the Temple’ is binding! 17 Blind fools! Which is greater, the gold, or the Temple that sanctifies the gold? 18 And you say that to take an oath ‘By the altar’ can be broken, but to swear ‘By the gifts on the altar’ is binding! 19 Blind! For which is greater, the gift on the altar, or the altar itself that sanctifies the gift? 20 When you swear ‘By the altar,’ you are swearing by it and everything on it, 21 and when you swear ‘By the Temple,’ you are swearing by it and by God who lives in it. 22 And when you swear ‘By heavens,’ you are swearing by the Throne of God and by God himself.
The third woe Jesus pronounces against the scribes and Pharisees calls the religious leaders “blind guides” and “blind fools”. Specifically, Jesus points out, they nit-picked about which oaths were binding and which were not, ignoring the sacred nature of all oaths and significance of the temple and God’s holiness. They blindly led God’s people to follow man-made traditions instead of God’s Word.
This has not disappeared in our culture. There are a number of denominations that promote man made traditions as being equal to God’s Word. Take note of what your particular denomination teaches. Does it focus on God’s Word, or does it weave in traditions that are not found in the Bible?
God is angered when you…


4. Involve yourself in insignificant details and ignoring what is really important: justice, mercy, and faith. Mt 23:23-2423 “Yes, woe upon you, Pharisees, and you other religious leaders—hypocrites! For you tithe down to the last mint leaf in your garden, but ignore the important things—justice and mercy and faith. Yes, you should tithe, but you shouldn’t leave the more important things undone. 24 Blind guides! You strain out a gnat and swallow a camel.
The fourth woe calls out the scribes and Pharisees for their practice of diligently paying the tithe while neglecting to actually care for people. While they were counting their mint leaves to make sure they gave one tenth to the temple, they “neglected the more important matters of the law—justice, mercy and faithfulness”. Once again, they focused on the letter of the Law and obeyed it with pride, but they missed the weightier things of God. Their religion was external; their hearts were not transformed.
It is possible to obey the details of the law but still be disobedient in our general behavior. For example, we could be very precise and faithful about giving 10 percent of our money to God but refuse to give one minute of our time in helping others. Tithing is important, but paying the tithed does not exempt us from fulfilling god’s other directives.
This also angers God:


5. Keeping up appearances while your private world is corrupt. Mt 23:25-26 25 “Woe to you, Pharisees, and you religious leaders—hypocrites! You are so careful to polish the outside of the cup, but the inside is foul with extortion and greed. 26 Blind Pharisees! First cleanse the inside of the cup, and then the whole cup will be clean.
The religious leaders made sure they were keeping up appearances while their private world was corrupt. Jesus elaborates on their hypocrisy in the fifth woe. He tells the religious leaders they appear clean on the outside, but they have neglected the inside. They perform religious acts but do not have God-honoring hearts. It does no good, Jesus says, to clean up the outside when the inside is “full of greed and self-indulgence”. The Pharisees and scribes were blind and did not recognize that, when the inside is changed, the outside, too, will be transformed.
I recently heard of a Christian men’s conference that was held in a large hotel. After the day’s conference, it was reported that 60 percent of the participants that night had ordered pay for view pornography as they attended the conference. It matters to God what you do in private as well as your public behavior. God wants our outside to match our insides. He sees what we do in secret, and we will all give an account of our behavior on judgment day.
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6. Act Spiritual to cover sin. Mt23:27-28 27 “Woe to you, Pharisees, and you religious leaders! You are like beautiful mausoleums—full of dead men’s bones, and of foulness and corruption. 28 You try to look like saintly men, but underneath those pious robes of yours are hearts besmirched with every sort of hypocrisy and sin.
We should not act spiritual to cover sin In the sixth woe, Jesus claims the scribes and Pharisees are “like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of the bones of the dead and everything unclean. The deadness inside of tombs is likened to the “hypocrisy and wickedness” inside the religious leaders. Once again, they appeared to obey God, but their hearts were far from Him. Jesus condemned these religious leaders for appearing saintly and holy outwardly but inwardly remaining full of corruption and greed. Living our Christianity as a show for others is like washing a cup on the outside only. When we are clean on the inside, our cleanliness on the outside won’t be a sham.
God is also angered when we:


7. Pretend to have learned from past history, but our present behavior shows we have learned nothing. Mt 23:29-36 29-30 “Yes, woe to you, Pharisees, and you religious leaders—hypocrites! For you build monuments to the prophets killed by your fathers and lay flowers on the graves of the godly men they destroyed, and say, ‘We certainly would never have acted as our fathers did.’
31 “In saying that, you are accusing yourselves of being the sons of wicked men. 32 And you are following in their steps, filling up the full measure of their evil. 33 Snakes! Sons of vipers! How shall you escape the judgment of hell?
34 “I will send you prophets, and wise men, and inspired writers, and you will kill some by crucifixion, and rip open the backs of others with whips in your synagogues, and hound them from city to city, 35 so that you will become guilty of all the blood of murdered godly men from righteous Abel to Zechariah (son of Barachiah), slain by you in the Temple between the altar and the sanctuary. 36 Yes, all the accumulated judgment of the centuries shall break upon the heads of this very generation.
Jesus concluded His seven-fold rebuke by telling the religious leaders that they are just like their fathers, who persecuted the prophets of old. In building monuments to the prophets, they testified against themselves, openly admitting that it was their ancestors who killed the prophets. Although they arrogantly claimed that they would not have done so, they were the ones who will soon plot the murder of the Son of God Himself.
In verse 35, Jesus gave a brief summary of Old Testament martyrdom. Abel was the first martyr; Zechariah was the last because the Hebrew Bible ended with 2 Chronicles. Zechariah was an example of a man of God being killed by those who claimed to be God’s people. ( 2 chronicles 24:21 21 Then the leaders plotted to kill Zechariah, and finally King Joash himself ordered him executed in the court of the Temple.)
Jesus wanted to gather His people together as a hen protects her chicks under her wings, but they wouldn’t let him. Jesus also wants to protect us if we will come to him. Many times, we hurt and don’t know where to turn. We reject Christ’s help because we don’t think He can give us what we need. But who knows our needs better than our Creator? Those who turn to Jesus will find that He helps and comforts as no one else can.


Jesus’ words were harsh because there was so much at stake. Those who followed the Pharisees and scribes were being kept from following God. Much of the teaching in Jesus’ day was in direct contradiction of God’s Word. The religious leaders made a mockery out of following God. They did not truly understand God’s ways, and they led others away from God. Jesus’ desire was that people would come to know God and be reconciled with Him.
Sadly, many churches in America are also teaching things that are in direct contradiction of God’s Word. And if people do not know Scripture, they will blindly assume their religious leaders are teaching God’s truth. I used to work at a bank and part of my training was studying currency so I would be able to spot a counterfeit. We study God’s Word for the same reason. We should all be like the ancient Bereans who dug into God’s Word and studied His truths so they would not be deceived by a leader’s lies.
You may not be a church leader, but it is possible for individuals to twist and distort God’s Word. It is possible for individuals to look holy on the outside but be sinful in secret. It is possible for individuals to “do church” but never have a transformed heart. Do you recognize yourself in any of these examples?
Jeremiah 2:35 And yet you say, “I haven’t done a thing to anger God. I’m sure he isn’t angry!” I will punish you severely because you say, “I haven’t sinned!”
Scripture tells us that we all have sinned and fallen short of meeting God’s holy standard. We need to recognize that we cannot save ourselves, despite all of the good deeds we may do. We need a savior!
Jeremiah 4:4 Cleanse your minds and hearts, not just your bodies, or else my anger will burn you to a crisp because of all your sins. And no one will be able to put the fire out.
We must repent of our sins and accept Jesus’ payment for our sins. Allow the Holy Spirit to transform our hearts and seek God’s truth today.
Repentance is more than saying, “Sorry!” It is a promise to turn around and avoid sinning. Accept Jesus’ payment for your sins, ask God to make you His own, and promise to do your best to live your life in ways that please Him. He will send the Holy Spirit to live inside of you to help guide you. He will make the Bible clear to you and help you make Godly choices.
I believe our time here is short. One day we will stand before God and be judged; we will either receive rewards for our life or be condemned for our behavior on earth. I pray that you will take these words to heart and draw close to God. Do not be one to hear Jesus say “I never knew you”!


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Living in God’s Light

Today we will look at a passage from the book of First John.   First John was written by the apostle John, one of Jesus’ original 12 disciples.  This letter was probably written between AD 85-90 from Ephesus, before John’s exile to the island of Patmos.  Jerusalem had been destroyed in AD 70, and Christians were scattered throughout the empire.  By the time John wrote this epistle, Christianity had been around for more than a generation.  It had faced and survived severe persecution.  The main problem confronting the church at this time was seduction and many believers were conforming to the world’s standards, failing to stand up for Christ, and compromising their faith.  False teachers were plentiful, and they accelerated the church’s downward slide away from the Christian faith.

Things haven’t really changed much in 2,000 years.  The church still faces seduction, and many believers are conformed to the world’s standards.  False teachers are still plentiful today, and we can fall for their lies.  Just as the Christians of John’s time, Believers in our time need to be reminded about how to live in God’s light.

1 John 1:5-10 AMP  5 This is the message [of God’s promised revelation] which we have heard from Him and now announce to you, that God is Light [He is holy, His message is truthful, He is perfect in righteousness], and in Him there is no darkness at all [no sin, no wickedness, no imperfection]. 6 If we say that we have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness [of sin], we lie and do not practice the truth; 7 but if we [really] walk in the Light [that is, live each and every day in conformity with the precepts of God], as He Himself is in the Light, we have [true, unbroken] fellowship with one another [He with us, and we with Him], and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin [by erasing the stain of sin, keeping us cleansed from sin in all its forms and manifestations]. 8 If we say we have no sin [refusing to admit that we are sinners], we delude ourselves and the truth is not in us. [His word does not live in our hearts.] 9 If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just [true to His own nature and promises], and will forgive our sins and cleanse us continually from all unrighteousness [our wrongdoing, everything not in conformity with His will and purpose]. 10 If we say that we have not sinned [refusing to admit acts of sin], we make Him [out to be] a liar [by contradicting Him] and His word is not in us.

This passage from the 1st letter of John gives three basic instructions on how to live in God’s light.  The first is to avoid spiritual darkness; second is: don’t be self-deceived; and the third is to freely confess our sins to God.

The first point of instruction in John’s letter to Christians is:   Avoid Spiritual darkness.

     V 5-7 AMP  5 This is the message [of God’s promised revelation] which we have heard from Him and now announce to you, that God is Light [He is holy, His message is truthful, He is perfect in righteousness], and in Him there is no darkness at all [no sin, no wickedness, no imperfection]. 6 If we say that we have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness [of sin], we lie and do not practice the truth; 7 but if we [really] walk in the Light [that is, live each and every day in conformity with the precepts of God], as He Himself is in the Light, we have [true, unbroken] fellowship with one another [He with us, and we with Him], and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin [by erasing the stain of sin, keeping us cleansed from sin in all its forms and manifestations].

    Light represents what is good, pure, true, holy and reliable.  Darkness represents sin and evil.  To say “God is light” means that God is perfectly holy and true, and that He alone can guide us out of the darkness of sin.  Light is also related to truth.  It exposes whatever exists, whether it is good or bad.  In the dark, good and evil can look alike; but in the light, they can be clearly distinguished.  Just as darkness cannot exit in the presence of light, sin cannot exist in the presence of a Holy God.  

    If we want to have a relationship with God, we must put aside our sinful ways of living.  To claim that relationship but live for ourselves is hypocrisy.   Christ will expose and judge such deceit.

    To walk in spiritual darkness means to live in sin and immoral pleasure.  Such people do not have fellowship with God.  They are not born of God.  Those who have fellowship with God experience His grace and live lives of holiness in His presence. 

    Conversely, to walk in spiritual light means to believe God’s truth as revealed in His Word and to make a sincere and sustained effort by His grace to follow it in word and deed.  The phrase “The blood of Jesus, His Son, purifies us from all sin” refers to the ongoing work of sanctification within the believer and the continual cleansing thought Christ’s blood for our inadvertent sins.

    This process is called “Sanctification”.  It means to make holy, to consecrate, to separate from the world, and to be set apart from sin so that we may have intimate fellowship with God and serve Him gladly. 

    1Peter 1:2 AMP  2 according to the foreknowledge of God the Father by the sanctifying work of the Spirit to be obedient to Jesus Christ and to be sprinkled with His blood: May grace and peace [that special sense of spiritual well-being] be yours in increasing abundance [as you walk closely with God].

    Sanctification was God’s will for His people in the OT; they were to live holy or sanctified lives, separated from the lifestyles of the nations around them.  Likewise, sanctification is a requirement for believer in Christ.  Scripture teaches that without holiness no one will see the Lord.

     Heb 12:14 AMP  14 Continually pursue peace with everyone, and the sanctification without which no one will [ever] see the Lord.

    God’s children achieve sanctification by faith, by union with Christ in His death and resurrection, by the blood of Christ, by the Word, and by the regenerating and sanctifying work of the Holy Spirit in their hearts.  Faith is not real unless it results in changed lives and good works and people cannot be true believers if they continue living in sin. 

    Sanctification is both a work of God and a work of His people.  In order to accomplish God’s will in sanctification, believers must participate in the Spirit’s sanctifying work by ceasing to do evil, purifying themselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, and keeping themselves from being polluted by the world.

    True sanctification requires that believers maintain intimate communion with Christ, engage in fellowship with believers, devote themselves to prayer, obey God’s Word, be sensitive to God’s presence and care, love righteousness and hate wickedness, put sin to death, submit to God’s discipline, continue to obey, and be filled with the Holy Spirit. 

    In the New Testament, sanctification is not pictured as a slow process of forsaking sin little by little.  Instead, it is presented as a definitive act by which the believer by grace is set free from Satan’s bondage and makes a clear break with sin in order to live for God.  At the same time, sanctification is described as a lifelong process by which we continue to put to death the misdeeds of the body and are progressively transformed into Christ’s likeness.  We grow in grace and exercise a greater love for God and each other. 

    We have seen that Believers should avoid spiritual darkness.  The second point of John’s instruction to Christians is: Don’t be self-deceived  v 8  AMP  8 If we say we have no sin [refusing to admit that we are sinners], we delude ourselves and the truth is not in us. [His word does not live in our hearts.]

     We need to remember that not everyone with a platform, television program, pod cast or radio slot will teach God’s truth.  If a person does not study the Bible and know it’s truth, they can easily be led astray by a false teacher.  Many false teachings appeal to our sin nature and sound like an easier path than what the Bible truly teaches. 

    There were false teachers who wormed their way into the church in John’s day as well as ours.  Some of these people taught the body was evil or worthless.  Either they insisted on denying bodily desires through rigid discipline, or they approved of gratifying every physical lust because the body was going to be destroyed anyway.  Obviously, the second approach was more popular in John’s time as well as ours!  In this letter John exposes the error in both of these approaches.

     Not only may false teachers be found in churches, but many are welcomed   into our homes on a nightly basis.  When I was in college, I was taught that those who control the media control the culture and can mold it to their will.  Television shows often promote the idea that lying is okay as long as it accomplishes one’s goal.  Sex before marriage is okay as long as you are in love.  And if the woman gets pregnant, an abortion can take care of that. If you are bored with your spouse, have an affair.  It is whatever makes you happy that matters.   Homosexuality is celebrated and religious people are foolish. 

    Today we see many false teachers promoting lifestyles that God clearly calls an abomination.  We see them sanctioning sexual immorality, teaching that it is okay to claim the name of Jesus and still actively participate in these sins.  One day we will all stand before God and give an account of how we followed Jesus in this life.  Beware of teachers who call evil good.

    Some false teachers taught that not only that they had no sin in them, and whatever they did, they would not sin.  This is a lie.  They forgot one basic truth: we are sinners by nature and by practice.

    Romans 3:23  AMP   For all have sinned and continually fall short of the glory of God.   

    These false teachers wanted to be considered Christians, but they saw no need to confess their sins and repent.  The blood of Jesus did not mean much to them, because they didn’t think they needed it.  Instead of repenting and being cleansed by Christ’s blood, they were introducing impurity into the circle of believers. 

    They taught not only that they had no sin in them but also that no matter what they did, they would not sin.  This is a lie.  They forgot the basic truth that we are sinners by nature and by practice.  At conversion all our sins are forgiven – past, present and future.  Yet even after we become Christians, we still sin and must confess.  This kind of confession is not to gain God’s acceptance, but to remove the barrier to fellowship that our sin has put between us and Him.  It takes humility and honesty to recognize our weaknesses, and most of us would rather pretend we are strong.  But we need to not fear revealing our sins to God – He knows them already.  He will not push us away, no matter what we’ve done.  Instead, He will push away the sins and draw us to Himself.

    We have seen that Christians should avoid spiritual darkness and should not be self-deceived.  Now we will address John’s third point: Freely confess sins to God 

    v.9-10  AMP  9 If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just [true to His own nature and promises], and will forgive our sins and cleanse us continually from all unrighteousness [our wrongdoing, everything not in conformity with His will and purpose]. 10 If we say that we have not sinned [refusing to admit acts of sin], we make Him [out to be] a liar [by contradicting Him] and His word is not in us.

    Confession is supposed to free us to enjoy fellowship with Christ.  It should ease our consciences and lighten our cares.  But some Christians do not understand how it works.  They feel so guilty that they confess the same sins over and over and then wonder if they might have forgotten something.  Other Christians believe God forgives them when they confess, but if they died with un-confessed sins, they would be forever lost.  These Christians do not understand that God wants to forgive us.  He allowed His beloved Son to die just so He could pardon us.  When we come to Christ, He forgives all the sins we have committed or will ever commit.  We don’t need to confess the same sins all over again and we don’t need to fear that He will cast us out if we don’t keep our slate perfectly clear at all moments.  Of course we want to continue to confess our sins, but not because we think failure to do so will make us lose our salvation.  Our hope in Christ is secure.  Instead, we confess our sins so we can enjoy maximum fellowship and joy with Him.

    True confession also involves a commitment not to continue in sin. We can’t just say, “Ooops, I did it again, sorry.”   We are not genuinely confessing our sins before God if we plan to commit the sin again and just want temporary forgiveness.  We must pray for strength to defeat the temptation the next time it appears.

    Born again Christians are still capable of some kinds of sin.  However, John does not teach that the Christian MUST sin; instead, he exhorts his readers to live without sin.  For those who do fall into sin, the remedy is to confess and forsake our sin.  The assurance of forgiveness lies in the blood of Jesus Christ and His heavenly ministry as “one who speaks to the Father in our defense.”  Jesus intercedes before God on our behalf on the basis of His atoning death, our repentance and our faith in Him.

    In this small passage of John’s letter, written to believers everywhere, we see three key instructions for the church.  We are to avoid spiritual darkness; don’t be self-deceived; and freely confess our sins to God.

    There is much spiritual darkness waging war against Christ’s church today and many false teachers doing their best to deceive God’s people.  John reminds us that we are to freely confess our sins to God. 

    If you have not done a thorough assessment of your life lately, ask God to show you where you may have sinned and confess them to receive that wonderful reconciliation with God.  Ask Him to help you avoid these snares of sinful behavior; He will through the power of the Holy Spirit. 

    May we walk before God with a clean slate and enjoy unbroken fellowship with our loving Heavenly Father.

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    Behave Yourself!

    When my children were young, they often heard a warning before we went out in public, going shopping, or visiting anywhere. BEHAVE YOURSELF! This meant no climbing on shelves, no hiding in the clothes racks, no helping themselves to food, no tantrums, no pleading, and no whining! It meant something a little different if we were going clothes shopping, especially if the shopping trip was for me. No running amuck in the dressing room, especially once I was stripped down to my underwear.

    They did that to me once. I had a double stroller with both of them strapped inside and I needed a dress for a special party. I wheeled them into the dressing room and proceeded to strip down, they undid the stroller straps, hopped out of the stroller and disappeared under the door of the changing booth, giggling hysterically as I hollered for them to get back inside here, all while frantically throwing on my clothes. They thought it was a grand joke. I was not amused.

    A visit to Great Aunt Mary’s house, with her collection of fragile china figurines on open display, meant a warning to not TOUCH ANYTHING. This also meant no rough housing, and sitting quietly even if the adult conversation was BORING! And don’t gobble the cookies she gave them, or complain that they wanted chocolate chip cookies instead of oatmeal raisin.

    These reminders were issued on a regular basis because my children are human and humans have a tendency to forget things, especially when presented with new and unfamiliar situations.

    Behave yourself was a reminder to not act like a rebellious out-of-control lout, to not behave selfishly, and to recognize the preciousness of others and their belongings.

    My children are now grown up and I don’t remind them to behave themselves when they go out. Hopefully they got enough to that message growing up.

    We may be all grown up, but we still need to behave, especially if we are Christians. You may ask, “Why should we Christians behave? Why should we live any differently than the rest of the world? I accepted Jesus as my Savior, and I’m going to heaven. What difference does it make if I behave or not?”

    We should behave for the sake of God’s Kingdom.

    Unfortunately, many unsaved people view Christians as hypocrites. We say one thing and often act in an entirely different way. The world is watching. People are searching for a truth to believe in and when we live no differently than the world, it cheapens Christ’s sacrifice. Why should they commit their lives to Christ when believers live the same as they do?

    Being a Christian is more than just attending a service on Sunday morning and letting the devil rule the rest of the week. Our lives should be so different than the lives of the lost that they are drawn to Christ because of the different way we live. Your life as a Christian should make non-believers question their disbelief in God.

    The Bible tells us to put on the new man when we are born again. We let go of things that offend God, live our lives to please Him and study His Holy Word. The Bible is our new road map for living. We are careful to not follow the way of the world but to walk as Jesus did, in close communion with God and striving to please Him in our daily live.

    We should behave for the sake of New Believers.

    -People are watching us. The un-redeemed person will test you to see if your faith is real. Remember, they are looking for something true to believe in; something that isn’t another lie.

    When I was a new believer, I felt like the Christian walk was something of a mine field. One person said I would go to Hell if I wore slacks or jewelry. Another said I would go to Hell if I used a salad dressing or cold medicine that contained alcohol. Another said I would go to Hell if I cut my hair. None of these will send you to Hell. If Jesus is your Lord and Savior, you will do you best to learn how He wants you to live. If you don’t know how to behave in the way God would have you behave, take a good look at the Ten Commandments and then Jesus’ answer to the Pharisees. These are a good place to start.

    Exodus 20:1-17

    1And God spoke all these words:

    2“I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.

    3“You shall have no other gods before me.

    4“You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.

    7“You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God, for the LORD will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses His name.

    8“Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 Six days you shall labor and do all your work, 10 but the seventh day is a sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns. 11 For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the sea, and all that is in them, but He rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.

    12“Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

    13“You shall not murder.

    14“You shall not commit adultery.

    15“You shall not steal.

    16 “You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.

    17“You shall not covet your neighbor’s house. You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, or his male or female servant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor.”

    These are the ten commandments that God Himself inscribed on a stone tablet for Moses. These are His rules for living, for the Nation of Israel as well as for us today.

    Or, you could check out the “Hillbilly 10 Commandments.” They are a condensed version of the 10 commandments, in a slightly different order than the ones God gave Moses, with a backwoodsy twist.

    1. Aint but One God.
    2. Honor yer Ma and Pa.
    3. No tellin’ tales or gossipin’.
    4. Git yer hide ta Sunday meetin’.
    5. Aint notin’ come before the Lord.
    6. No foolin’ with another feller’s gal.
    7. No killin’, cept fer critters.
    8. Quit yer foul mouthin’.
    9. No swipen’ yer kin folk’s stuff.
    10. Don’t be hankerin’ fer it neither.

    The Pharisees and Sadducees were the teachers of the teachers of the law the leaders of Israel in Jesus’ day and they were always trying to trip him up. They questioned Jesus on the commandments in Matthew 22: 34-40.

    34Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. 35One of them, an expert in the law, tested Him with this question: 36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

    37 Jesus replied, “Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ 40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

    And this succinctly boils down all of the ten commandments into two. Love God and love people.

    We should behave because our children are watching.

    We all smile when we see a little boy imitating his daddy shaving, or a little girl imitating her mother applying makeup. Our children are watching our every move and the lessons they learn as they watch us are far more impactful than anything we could ever say.

    Some things are better caught than taught. We should be a living gospel to all who see us, particularly our children. Studies show that parents who make church attendance optional. meaning only attending when it is convenient, tend to raise children who view church and God as non-essential.

    In 1 Corinthians 4:16 Paul urges the new Believers in Corinth to imitate him as he follows Christ. Our children imitate us. Our children and new Believers are always watching us and learning how to walk the Christian walk largely based on how we are walking ourselves.

    We should behave because Jesus is watching.

    Have you heard the joke about the burglar and the parrot? the burglar breaks into a person’s house and is busily trying to crack open the safe when he hears a voice behind him say, “Jesus is watching,.” Startled, he turns around and sees no one else in the room with him and returns to his work. Again, he hears: “Jesus is watching.”

    This time he shines his flashlight around the room and sees a parrot sitting on a perch. The bird looks at him and says again, “Jesus is watching.”

    “Just a stupid bird,” the burglar mutters. Then he asks the bird its name. The bird replies, “Moses.”

    “Moses!” the burglar says. “Who would name a bird Moses?”

    The bird replies, “The same person who named their Rottweiler Jesus. Sic ’em, Jesus.”

    Jesus Christ is not a rottweiler. He is the King and Lord of Lords and is God in the flesh. He will come again to judge the living and the dead. Believers will not be judged as to if they can enter heaven or not; believing in Jesus, making Him the Lord of your life and following Him takes care of that. But there is a special judgment for believers where Jesus will examine the works we did on earth, and the way that we lived our life here on earth and we will be rewarded for the things we did for His Kingdom.

    In Matthew 16:24-27, Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for Me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? For what can a man give in exchange for his soul? For the son of man is going to come in His Father’s glory with His angels and then He will reward each person according to what he has done.”

    Paul, addressing the church in Corinth said in 1 Corinthians 3:10-15: By the grace God has given me I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds. For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man’s works. If what has built survives, he will receive his reward. It it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames.

    What are you building on the foundation of Jesus Christ? Are you building with gold and gemstones or wood and straw?

    Jesus is the good shepherd. He watches over His church. It breaks my heart to think of willfully doing anything that would grieve Him or cause Him pain. He has done so much for me. My obedience to Him is an act of love.

    Jesus said, “If you love me, you will obey My commandments.” Remember, these are “love God and love people.” Walk circumspectly because people are watching. They are the lost, sin-soaked world that is looking for truth to commit their lives to. They are new Believers who are looking for an example of Christian walk to follow. They are your children, the next generation of Christianity. And it is Jesus, our Lord and Savior, who is looking for people to follow Him in truth.

    There is a sad heresy that has crept into Christendom today. It is the Hyper Grace movement. It reduces a life of devotion to Jesus to a mere incantation. Say the words, walk the church aisle, and be saved. Then live as you choose because you now have your golden ticket to heaven.

    That is not the way it works. Jesus is looking for people to be devoted to Him, to turn away from sin, and walk as new creatures in the light of God, not people who only give Him lip service and then live by their own rules.

    Are you willing to make that choice? Are you willing to give up the sinful life and follow Jesus? If you are willing, please don’t delay. I firmly believe that Jesus could return for His Church at any moment. You don’t want to miss that train. You don’t have to recite a fancy prayer; just talk to God from your heart and tell Him you are sorry for sinning against Him and ask Him to make you part of His family and ask HIm to help you live for Jesus.

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    Coronovirus – Cabin Fever!

    I live in Virginia. I have been staying home, in happy self-quarantine, for three weeks now, since my earlier than planned return from the Land of Sunshine. I have been okay with that. I like my house, I like ordering groceries on-line, and the weather has been warm enough for backyard campfires and cook outs. I have had no urge whatsoever to leave. Until yesterday.

    Yesterday the Virginia Governor made a public decree. Because people were not following his recommendation to not gather in groups during this pandemic, he did what any normal parent would do with his rebellious children. He sent us all to our rooms.

    “Effective IMMEDIATELY ! All non-essential travel will CEASE!” We are allowed to leave our homes to exercise, get food, seek medical treatment, and work (providing we have a note from our boss defining our jobs as essential.) Everybody else, STAY HOME.

    This mandate is in effect till JUNE 10! Oh, boy!

    While I agree whole- heartedly with his decision, something awoke deep inside of me. I think it is called Cabin Fever!

    Some people get it when they are snowed in during a nasty Michigan blizzard, risking their lives on icy roads to escape the Cabin Fever wall climbing clutches. Others get it at the mere suggestion of being quarantined. I thought I was immune to this but, alas, I am not.

    We had a grocery order ready for pickup yesterday afternoon and I decided to ride along. On the way we stopped at the storage lot and unloaded a few baskets of summer clothing from the trailer. May is warm here and we will need those summer things before the quarantine is lifted.

    It was fun to see the trees blooming and my pretty city in the spring-time. I haven’t been out to see it since before Christmas. And today, I wanted to do it again. There isn’t really anywhere to GO; stores, parks and beaches are all closed. I just wanted to go for a drive.

    There is a big difference between CHOOSING to stay home and being MADE to stay home. I feel a little bit like a teenager in class detention; I wasn’t the one acting up but everyone gets punished for it.

    I’m not sure what the cure is for Cabin Fever. I am pretty much a homebody and usually have no trouble entertaining myself. I may be writing more before the June 10 quarantine is lifted!

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    Coronavirus Dreaming

    Our world changed dramatically after the terrorist attack on 9-11. I went through a period where my dreams were centered on the time before the attack, and I would wake up in the morning with the dream still swirling around in my mind, and then be snapped into reality after a second or two.

    I don’t recall exactly when the new reality following 9-11 finally kicked in to my subconscious, but it eventually did. I didn’t fly very often but my husband was a frequent business flier so our family was probably more aware of the increased security procedures than most people were.

    Since returning home from our winter in the Land of Sunshine, I have experienced a similar sensation. My dream life has been pre-COVID19 and waking up to the reality of self quarantine and government regulations have felt reminiscent of the days following 9-11. There is that moment, upon first awakening, when your subconscious is still spinning tales of your dreams, that all is back to normal and you plan your day’s activities. Then true reality sinks in and you remember that life is not as it was.

    I think my subconscious has settled into the new normalcy. Last night I dreamed a quarantine dream; it was about everyday life, going on as usual, but we were all in quarantine. It was not a defining point in the dream, instead it was more like the wallpaper in a room – just a part of the background. We did normal life things that we have been doing the past two weeks while in self quarantine. It was not a scary dream, or a significant dream, or a Word from Heaven kind of dream. It was pretty garden variety as dreams go, but the one thing that I remember is that we were living our lives according to the new rules.

    When I woke up this morning, my brain did not experience the “life has changed jet lag” that it has the past two weeks. My subconscious has accepted the fact that this, for the time being, is the new normal.

    Despite the shifting sands of normalcy in this life,there is one constant that will never change. The Bible says that the Lord is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. He does not change. He is the rock we can anchor our life upon and know that whatever happens in this life is just a flash in the pan of eternity.
    God’s got this. We can trust Him despite of the circumstances around us.

    Despite the circumstances, because Jesus Christ is my personal savior, I have a peace that transcends the uncertainties of this life. If you haven’t’ met Him, pick up a Bible during this time of self isolation and get to know Him. You will never regret it.

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    COVID19 – White Nights

    The night before last I had insomnia. I was bug-eyed and wide awake until after 5:30 am. It reminded me of a bout of insomnia I experienced about 10 years ago when doctors discovered a growth on my thyroid. I tried to not think about it during the day and felt like I wasn’t freaking out with future tripping “what ifs”, but still experienced a four night insomnia storm leading up to my biopsy. I think it was a deep, subconscious anxiety about what they might find that kept me wound up and unable to sleep. Everything turned out fine; lots of people have benign growths on their thyroid, especially as they get older. But sometimes, it is malignant, hence the anxiety.

    A friend of mine in Tennessee experienced insomnia last night and shared her frustration on Facebook. Sleeplessness is unusual for her. She works hard during the day and typically sleeps well all night. Many of her friends chimed in to her post, sharing that they, too, were experiencing insomnia. It must be something going around.

    In retrospect, I can look back on my white nights prior to my biopsy and attribute the sleeplessness to anxiety created by the uncertainties of the thyroid growth. I couldn’t break it down to that at the time because I was caught up in the storm.


    There is so much uncertainty about life and the future wrapped around this Global Pandemic and I suspect many of us are experiencing insomnia driven anxiety during this time of self quarantined isolation.

    We can just try to soldier on and cope as best as possible, or we can take action when insomnia disturbs our sleep. I am not talking about taking sleeping pills. They didn’t work for me when I was in the thyroid insomnia storm. A sleep aid can sometimes force our bodies into an artificial sleep pattern but they don’t address the root of the problem. Looking back, I can see that I was afraid of what the biopsy might find. I refused to address the fear and pushed it down, out of my mind instead of releasing it to God.

    When insomnia strikes there is usually something else going on beneath the surface that we are not surrendering to God.

    Recognizing the attack and addressing the root cause is the first step to overcoming. Satan, the enemy of our soul, looks for these chinks in our spiritual armor and uses them to distract and derail us. He doesn’t fight fairly and never wastes an opportunity to keep our eyes off Jesus.

    I have a suggestion if you are experiencing sleepless nights, or if you want to take some preemptive steps. Before you go to bed, set up a CD player, MP3 player, tablet, or other music playing device next to your bed. Load it with soothing worship songs. Have earphones handy if you share a bedroom and don’t want to disturb your partner.

    When insomnia strikes, play this music softly and focus your mind on Jesus. Consciously relax and rest your body. Choose to relax your mind. Focus on the words of the song. Demonic forces flee when Jesus is worshiped and God is glorified.

    Tell God what is bothering you. Be honest. He knows it already and is there to help you through this. He loves you and wants you to rest in Him and trust Him despite the circumstances swirling around you. Remember, God’s got this.

    I pray that the peace of Christ floods your spirit, and floods the spirits of all who are dealing with many uncertainties in this season.

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    COVID19 – Quarantine Buns

    My husband and I entered self-quarantine one week ago today, because we had left an area in Florida where there were growing numbers of community acquired cases of Corona virus. Our home is comfortable and we have food in the freezer so nobody is in a panic at our house.

    Temperatures were in the unseasonable high eighties yesterday and the weather demanded summer-like food. My frozen burger patties were slated to be grilled when I realized I didn’t have any buns. Under normal circumstances this would have been resolved by a quick trip to the local grocery store, but we are in quarantine. Fortunately I have ingredients and decided to try my hand at making hamburger buns.

    I googled several recipes for these buns, finally deciding on one where I could use my bread maker to do the kneading. I loaded the wet ingredients into the hopper, followed by the dry, topping it off with my yeast, turned the machine to a dough setting and left for a three mile bike ride. When I returned, I gently lifted the dough, rolled it into 1/2 inch thickness and cut uniform circles with a drinking glass.

    These little rounds rested on a sprayed cookie sheet for an hour where they doubled in size before being baked for @15 minutes in a preheated oven. Once cooled, I broke them apart, sliced them in half, and enjoyed our burgers.

    The buns have a slightly denser texture than the flimsy, low cost buns I usually buy. They taste more like fancy, artisan buns. I guess they are!

    As we are all locked down, this is a great time to experiment and try new things. You may just discover something you love!

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    Watching COVID19 – Fleeing Florida

    My husband and I spent the winter in Florida this year. We packed up our little 16 ft travel trailer and headed south shortly after Christmas. Virginia winters are chilly, sometimes there is even snow. We chose to escape winter for many reasons, one being the lure of summer-like temperatures.

    First stop was a six week stay at a private campground in Florida City, the gateway to the Keys. Our Florida State Park pass gave us access to all of the State Parks in the Keys and we visited many of them, bicycling around the parks as well as the local communities. We soaked up sun, swam in the waters, and hung out enjoying the beautiful scenery and weather. At the private campground, we participated in many activities, made friends, and were very sad to leave when our time was done.

    From there, we headed north for a two week stay at Jonathon Dickinson State Park by the Atlantic Ocean. Florida’s state parks are in high demand, despite their limit of two week stays. We were fortunate to get in at all, as reservations must be made 11 months ahead. We logged miles on our bicycles on the park’s many trails and enjoyed campfires and nature. Our time ended and we moved to a private resort in Ft. Myers for the final month of our trip.

    By then, we were starting to see news stories about a killer virus in China. Then reports started targeting cases in Florida, all travel and cruise related. Florida takes the COVID19 virus very seriously and nightly news reports stated how many cases were identified, where they were contracted, where the people were recovering (hospital, nursing facility, or their homes) and how many cases were being monitored for development. We kept a social distance from folks we met and didn’t participate in any group activities. Florida’s first COVID19 death occurred in a local hospital.

    Our daughter back in Virginia was very concerned, especially as the news reported more and more cases of COVID19 across many states. She wanted us home!

    We, however, were enjoying the 85 degree sunshine and were reluctant to trade that for 50 degree drizzle in Virginia. Besides, our campsite was paid until the first of April, with no refunds. We figured we weren’t in any danger to just stay in place.

    There were only a few cases of travel-related COVID19 in our area when my husband surprised me by asking me to write out a 4 week menu for the two of us using only shelf stable foods. I don’t usually cook with shelf stable food, and figured we could eventually use it for our hurricane supplies. I didn’t think we had any reason for concern. We then purchased this food and stored it in a big plastic bin in our van. His reasoning was that we might be quarantined in the campground for a month and this way we would be prepared. I keep a pantry at home, but certainly didn’t pack food for a 12 week trip in our little trailer. We tend to visit the grocery store every couple of days, picking up milk, bread, meat, and whatever else that is running low. The shelves were full, the store relatively empty, and we gathered our lengthy list with no problems.


    One week ago today we were the lone mini golf players at the resort’s golf course, arguing with our daughter by phone, trying to convince her that we were fine as she was trying to convince us that we were not. We had plans to meet friends at a restaurant the following day, but that evening Florida announced its first community acquired case of COVID19 in our area.

    We prayed for direction and peace. Odds are, this wasn’t a huge threat to us, and prepared to make the 45 minute drive to see our friends. As I was getting ready, not thinking about anything except applying make up and fixing my hair, the voice of God spoke to my spirit. Clearly, I heard, “It’s time. It’s time to go home.” and a peace flooded over me. I told my husband it was time to go home and he agreed that we would leave in the morning.

    We headed out to meet our friends, and on the way I developed a raging sore throat. It was almost instantaneous. With only three miles to go, we cancelled, turned around, and headed back. My husband made one stop at a drug store to buy a numbing throat spray for me, and we quickly packed up our campsite and started the drive back at 2:30 pm.

    On the road we learned that three more community acquired cases had been identified in our area. This is no longer a virus limited to those who caught it while traveling over seas; it is now real, it is a pandemic, and it is in our backyard!

    Because we were coming from an active community acquired area, we began practicing self quarantine while on the trip home. Usually we stop and eat at restaurants, use the public facilities and take stretch breaks. This trip was different. We used the facilities in our trailer for bathroom and meals, avoiding people as much as possible. My husband used disposable gloves for pumping gas and copious amounts of hand cleaner.

    We are home now, our trailer is unpacked and returned to storage, and we have settled in for a two week isolation. Every day on the news, we see stricter regulations from our government and watch more and more businesses close. Our daughter is working from home and her computer equipment is spread over our dining room table. My husband is working on the kitchen table, filing our taxes and watching the stock market tank. I am spending lots of time in my home office, reading the Bible, writing and praying.

    Every day we see more and more reports of deaths from this virus, accelerating numbers of cases and growing restrictions. We were fortunate to arrive home before domestic travel bans are implemented for civilians and military families. We hear the ever expanding time lines of projections when this siege will end.

    We join the rest of the world watching COVID19.

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    Back on my Feet

    Frankenstein shoe

    The saga of my broken foot continues.  The month off my feet has passed, aided by a bout of the flu that left me too ill to get out of bed for the final two weeks.  I did not accomplish all of the great things I had planned to tackle during my sojourn, but am thrilled that my doctor has given me permission to lose the crutches and knee scooter, at least for now.

    I wheeled in on the knee scooter for my one-month-off-the-foot check up and x-ray, and was told the discouraging news that nothing had changed.  He then said that he really wants to do surgery to remove the chip but had decided to listen to the other doctors whose council he had sought and would give me some time to try healing without drastic measures.  Instead of the walking boot I asked for, he recommended a new pair of special shoes. They are basically leather casts that I can take off when I go to bed, similar to those old fashioned white leather baby shoes so many of us forced our toddlers to wear back in the day.  Thankfully, they don’t look like those old fashioned baby shoes!

    The specialty store that my doctor recommended only carries the shoes in a medium width. Having a very narrow foot, I once made the mistake of buying a regular width shoe and allowing the shoe store to “pad” the inside to snug it up.  Not only was it miserably uncomfortable, my toes bruised from sliding down to the end of the shoes.  I have found that  most shoe stores do not stock narrow widths.  Regular and wide, yes, but not narrow.

    I talked to a salesman on the phone and he did his best to encourage me to let him pad the shoes, because “most people who say their feet are narrow, really aren’t THAT narrow and can wear a regular width.” The shoes I needed were $165 a pair, and although he could order me a pair in a narrow width, it would be a full two weeks before they arrived.  I needed a pair of narrow shoes now.

    After thanking  him I pulled out my computer.  Amazon happened to have one of the two recommended styles in narrow and my less favorite  style was on sale for $83 a pair.  Economy won over fashion.  I ordered them and they arrived in two days.  As much as I like supporting small businesses, I couldn’t justify the two week delay and the huge price difference.  Score one for big business.  Sorry, little guy.

    These special shoes do not flex.  I call them my Frankenstein shoes and feel like Herman Munster clomping around in them.  But, I am able to walk around my house, stand, and go up and down stairs the traditional way!  I am able to cook, clean, and live my life again.  My feet get very tired after I have been up and around for most of the day;  I suspect it is from adjusting to the new properties of the shoe and  to being back on my feet.

    My doctor made it clear  that I am not released to walk for exercise, and  I have noticed the ankle of my broken foot feeling much weaker.  Driving around the block burned  like fire.  When I first put on the new shoes, I felt like I was walking with a small stone in my shoe about where the chip has broken off.  Now, after a week of wearing them, I no longer notice the “stone.”

    Per the doctor’s orders, I am not to go barefoot.  I do not need a brace for sleeping or showering, but need to get my shoes on as quickly as possible and wear them all day long.

    After another month, I am to report in to the doctor and he will assess whether or not he gets to do surgery.  Based on recommendations I have heard, I am in no hurry to rush down that road.  I am mobile and I am confident that it IS in the process of healing.

    I am also a firm believer in the power of prayer and different prayer warriors have prayed specifically for a healing touch on my foot.  God has supernaturally healed my body before, as well as the bodies of other family members, and I am confident that He will do it again.  The Bible says “Blessed are the feet of those who bring the Good News.”  This little setback is just an occasion for my God to dazzle the doctors when He shows His stuff.

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    Myself—On the Shelf

    Sometimes circumstances force us to the sidelines.  We don’t understand why.  We hate being out of commission.  But, sometimes, the only response is compliance, as difficult as that may be.

    Are there any other shelf-sitters out there?

    The saga of my foot injury continues.  It was rapidly improving  after the “Snap, Crackle, Pop” incident.  No longer swollen or bruised, and no longer constantly aching.  Sure, it would get tired after a long walk and ice baths felt amazing, but there was lots of improvement over the mess it had been in July.  A nurse friend suggested I get an x-ray, just be sure, but I was pretty sure that would be money needlessly spent.

    And then, it happened; a collision with 60 pounds of furry force bent my toes backwards and bathed me in white hot pain.  Barefoot, in the recliner, my foot collided with boundless puppy energy.  This time, the constant throbbing didn’t go away after a couple of weeks.  Because there was no additional bruising and no noticeable swelling, I self-diagnosed that I probably had something out of joint from the latest collision and called my chiropractor.

    After hearing my litany of injuries to my foot, she wisely refused to see me without a foot x-ray and sent me to an urgent care center.  Still loudly insisting it was only a sprain, I submitted to an x-ray.

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    You don’t have to be a radiologist to see what is wrong with this picture.  I broke the knobby end of the toe bone at the joint.  The Urgent Care Dr. suggested I call a Podiatrist.

    The Podiatrist looked at the x-ray and listened to the long, complicated history of the foot injury and thanked me for bringing him such an unusual and interesting case.  This is not a normal injury.  He sold me a “Magic Boot” to stabilize my foot, told me to come back in a week after he had consulted with other specialists, and told me to “cut back on my normal activity.”

    I am very active.  I hit the ground running in the morning and usually do not sit down till around 8 pm for a couple hours of television before heading to bed.  But, in obedience to the Dr.’s orders I  swapped out my running shoe for the magic boot, stopped mowing the lawn with the push mower and taking the dog on 3/4 mile walks.

    He was not happy with me when I returned.  I was still feeling my pulse in my foot when I went back to his office and he asked me why I hadn’t cut back on my activity.  I said I had, but apparently not enough.  Clarifying, he told me “I want you to stay OFF YOUR FOOT.  Sit when you could stand, crutches or knee scooter when you could walk, and no stairs for the next TWO MONTHS.”  This means no shopping, no driving, no walking.

    If I rest my foot completely, there is a chance that I can avoid surgery.  The body may form a fibrous scar around the broken chip, which will look funky in future x-rays, but should be functional.  If I don’t rest it enough to form the scar, I will need a complicated surgery to not only remove the chip but to attach ligaments back to the parent bone with screws and pins, bringing an even longer and more difficult recovery period.

    Did I mention that my bedroom and my office are on the second floor?

    I am reminded of the joke about the old lady who broke her leg and couldn’t climb stairs for 3 months.  When her doctor finally removed her cast and granted her permission to climb stairs again, she said, “Hallelujah!  It has been so hard to shinny up that drainpipe every night to go to bed.”

    I’m not shinnying up drainpipes, but I go up and down the stairs on my bum, lifting myself with my arms, chair dip style.  I have crutches for the upstairs of my house, and a borrowed knee scooter for the downstairs.

    What can you do with no hands and only one leg? It is surprisingly tiring to get around with these aides. and very limiting.  Cooking, for example, requires many trips around the kitchen just to gather ingredients and utensils, and because I cannot get as close to the stove as I need to, there is lots of leaning.  I haven’t figured out how to maneuver loading  the dishwasher or oven because of the weird angles from the scooter, and the fact that I need one hand to steer it.

    Fortunately my daughter and husband have graciously jumped in to assume my share of the house-hold tasks.  I am grateful to family and  friends who have given me rides to and from events, and have brought me meals and drinks. I think these devices should come with drink holders, or I should buy one of those hiking bladder backpacks.

    So I am spending time “on the shelf.”  This is a rare opportunity for study, reading, painting, and prayer.  Prior shelf times have always been followed by headlong plunges into busy seasons of ministry and I don’t suspect this is any different.  It is a time of healing, for my foot, and a time of preparation for the what ever is waiting around the bend.

     

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